it 'tis what is really in your heart, and how you live your evry day life, is what makes a person, and not how many times one goes to church. I am more of a christian, by my daily deeds, than most whom call themselves one, just because they go to church every week, and even look down on another, because of their cloths.

I am sure you are look down upon.

I never go to church anymore, and I just gave my books to the son of my boss, whom is dating a jack Mormon, and only goes to church, coz, her mum MAKES her, do so. But I am better than most of them, as like jesus, I show foregiveness, they show hate, and controle....

How do you feel in your heart of hearts? You know you could be living with a guy, that you are not wed to, and still be a goiod person, but not a good Mormon. I am a good person, and a very bad Mormon; yet I always sleep alone.

Hey PT.

Everyones doing their best to to get along. And your fellow members know that.

There's no one in your congregation that thinks any less of you for not having come to church on a regular basis. They are probably more concerned because they are worried that your not getting as spiritually fed at home as you would at church. But, I can tell you as one who's been in a leadership role in my ward, you are cared for and missed. You are far from alone.

Not to get too scary but the Devil loves to make you think, your not welcome at church, that people will look down on you. This is not the case, period.

Do you have a home teacher or visiting teacher that comes to see you or call. They can be of great help in reassuring you that you are wanted and they can be uplifting in other ways as well. If you haven't seen yours, it may be because that brother or sister may be going through something similar where they think you are going to be cross with them because they haven't been coming regularly. If you haven't seen them recently, give them a call if you have the number, nothing lifts a home or visiting teacher like someone that they have stewardship over calling and inviting them over. If you don't know who they are, call your ward. They can find out for you and will be happy to be of service.

Heavenly Father wants you at church and also at the Temple. He wants you to do those things that will help you into the spiritual place that you need to be to go to the temple. There's a whole lot of good that comes in going to church. To start you don't need to go for the whole block of 3 hours. You could go for sacrament for a few weeks and see how you feel. I bet you will find it quite comfortable and will enjoy being there longer. And if not then talk to your bishop. He's someone who can maybe help figure out why your uncomfortable and maybe you guys can figure something out.

To more directly answer question. At times I do find it hard to go to church, especially of I've been out for a few weeks. Maybe it was a really long Saturday and sacraments at 9am on Sunday. Or the kids kept me up much of the night. Or even on occasion early on after baptism I wasn't able to complete a church assignment and I was worried then person who asked me was going to be mad. I assure you that no one was ever mad, because they know that its sometimes hard, they've been there to.

Just an FYI for you General Conference is coming up this weekend. How great is that? If you have cable you can watch from home and never have to get dressed. Or if you don't have cable you can go to your local Stake Center and watch. It's at (I believe) 9-11am and 1-3pm Pacific time both Saturday and Sunday.

Good luck and God Bless you.

FYI: I was raised in the Church . I have members in my ward that I am very close too and I see them on almost a weekly basis for activitys .
The whole Sunday thing bothers me always has I like to go to the enrichment activitys and really would like to go to Fast an Testimony meetings I find them very humbling,I on the other hand never get up I dont speak in front of a Congregation no way not for me ... I can think of a few reasons why I dont like to go to church every Sunday #1 Headaches I often wonder if there's a cleaning chemical or something in the building that bothers me #2 I hate when I get asked to say prayers I dont like to speak for a group I always turn them down when they ask ,I end up feeling like crap after I turn them down #3 I dont want any callings , I know this is the way to serve the lord but I feel by taking care of my two beautiful children I am serving the lord. So with saying that . I wonder If I will ever feel comfortable being a member of the Church.

Oh by the way I watched saturday I love the talk about watchin what you say cause it affects how you feel .. Guesss I need to really work on that one :-) Jeeez I can be such a Hypocrite sometimes . Im not sure who gave the talk cause I never paid attention to that just the message .. It came loud and clear I guess thats the point right .

I can't speak for the people in your ward, but I was in the RS Presidency for almost 6 years, and I know that we worried over our less active sisters, prayed over our less active sisters, but we did not "look down" on them. In my ward, we're constantly reminded of the fact that no one knows really what burden(s) anyone else carries.

I have a hard time getting to my meetings every Sunday. It's never easy. If it weren't for my calling I'd find it very easy to just stay home. Do you have a calling in your ward?

Our Ward Mission Leader is fond of saying that every member needs 4 things: a testimony, a friend, a job, and constant spiritual nourishment. I tend to agree with him. My calling as Primary Chorister keeps me active when it feels as though life is beating me down and the forces of evil are winning everywhere around me.

I hope you find a way to "keep the faith".